Originally posted on my private blog on June 3, 2010
Yesterday Josh and I traveled 7 hours round trip to Orlando to visit Universal Studios/Islands of Adventure.
When we arrived back at the condo last night, we showered and crashed. I laid in bed thinking that I'm getting too old for this shit. I have always envisioned myself taking my grandkids to Disney World, etc. After yesterday, I'm thinking that by the time I have grandkids, I'm gonna be too old to walk, let alone spend the day walking around in the hot sun, having my brains scrambled on coasters.
We did have an enjoyable day though and today is our last day here.
We check out tomorrow and begin the two day drive back home.
Josh had a very sad moment Tuesday night which in turn made me very sad.
I've tried to talk to him further about what happens when we get home, I've stressed the importance of him doing 'whatever he plans to do' regarding medication under the care of a psychiatrist. If I push too far, he gets angry, so I'm walking a fine line.
It's very hard to accept that he's going to undo all the good this trip has done. He is stable on medication although his periods of sadness still need to be addressed, as do some of the side effects, but he is closer to his normal self than I've seen him for months now.
He still hasn't accepted that he has Bipolar Disorder, let alone accept what he has to do to control it. And I just keep talking as opportunities appear.
I will try to hold onto the gift that this time together has been no matter what happens when we get home. I now have a vision of what is possible for him, even if he can't see it.
Please keep us in your prayers, as I continue to pray that God will guide me.
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Acceptance of bipolar is a very difficult thing to do. For some it takes years and others they might never accept it. Hopefully he has accepted now since I know this was posted a while back.
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